Don't know where else to say this.......

.....but I think this is the safest place. I am 34 and I am apparently going thru a mid-life crisis. I am surrounded by people, most of them under 4 feet tall, yet I feel totally and completely alone.

I just got back from watching Eat, Pray, Love and I am more scared now than ever. I am afraid that if I tried to "find" myself like the main character from the film, I wouldn't find anyone worth knowing. All that is in me is some boring house wife who has nothing better to talk about than toddler eating habits and dirty diapers. I have turned into some one that I don't recognize or understand.

Is therapy the answer or another cliche? How can talking about something that I can't verbalize make me feel better? I can't even hold a thought in my head long enough to understand it much less be able to communicate it to anyone, even my husband. Dear sweet husband. He has no idea what I am feeling and wouldn't get it if he did.

I am lost.